hold your own.

Friday, November 28, 2008

broken, shattered, crushed

i dont feel like going to school
i dont want to leave my locked up room
only where i am safe in
how am i going to go school in the state i am in now
even worse
give word tonight
i am breaking down now
and i cant be certain i wont later
but i dont want to later
everyones going to freak out
and start acting all concerned
fakes
just like my dearest one
to think youre my dearests ones
and you just bring me down like that
dont you know im at deepest pit now
so much so ive never felt this deep before
why dont you try not sleeping for almost two days in a row
trying to finish up stupid work
which you end up thinking its lousy
whats more
your drawing sucks and youre the lousiest in class
for cell stuff
youre all alone, doing everything
but what gives you the right to complain
when others have survived it and is still surviving
you are just this pathetic piece of nothing
that you cant even handle one and a half semesters

i just need someone OR EVEN SOMETHING for me to lean on
but no i have got nothing
abondened
left all alone
no one loves you
you pathetic piece of nothing
now just buck up and go to school


ABIGALE PUA september eleven seventeen! (: female. christian Temasek design school-ADM &TAGGGS &LOVESSS AMARIS AMOS BENNY BRENDA BRIANNA CHERLYN DESMOND EARNEST HONGZHEN IVY JESSIE JOEY KELLY LIJIN LISA LITING LYN MIKE MS MUNLING PRADA PRIYA REBECCA SEAN SHANIN (: <3 SHIWEN SHOLLEH SYARA 6B September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 Bituwin - template Dementee - image	Friday, November 28, 2008 broken, shattered, crushed i dont feel like going to school i dont want to leave my locked up room only where i am safe in how am i going to go school in the state i am in now even worse give word tonight i am breaking down now and i cant be certain i wont later but i dont want to later everyones going to freak out and start acting all concerned fakes just like my dearest one to think youre my dearests ones and you just bring me down like that dont you know im at deepest pit now so much so ive never felt this deep before why dont you try not sleeping for almost two days in a row trying to finish up stupid work which you end up thinking its lousy whats more your drawing sucks and youre the lousiest in class for cell stuff youre all alone, doing everything but what gives you the right to complain when others have survived it and is still surviving you are just this pathetic piece of nothing that you cant even handle one and a half semesters i just need someone OR EVEN SOMETHING for me to lean on but no i have got nothing abondened left all alone no one loves you you pathetic piece of nothing now just buck up and go to school 8:12 AM &always.